This world we live in finds so many ways to strike at us. When you begin to stop the direct crap. It is vicious, never ending, always persistent. Life will plan for months to destroy you. Fill you with hope, let you love, let you draw your happiness from someone. Then in the blink of an eye it is ready to strike. You will lose everything you dreamed of. Your career that you planned to help and do good. You will lose the love that you wanted for the rest of your life. Even though you were led to believe it was meant to be. That was just life working its master plan. Then with your heart wide open it presses it’s advantage. You get played like a fool. Dragged around like a little doll by the one you thought cared about you the most. Only to have to realize one day that you just have to move on. That day where you have to remove so much from you’re life that it just grabs your heart and squeezes it to a pulp. Now you wish this story ends. With everything fixed and all is well. But it doesn’t. The pain carries on you wait for help that seems to take forever to come. No clear answer, no idea how to deal with or get over this pain. Just trying to deal the best you can.